Happy Birthday to Natasha and Annie! :o

Hmmmm...it was two of my best friends birthdays today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS!

We toured 'Where the Wild Things Are' today and that was actually really fun..well except for we got lost today. N' I had to save everyone but whatevers! That was fine!

To my friends who are suffering because boys are not very trustworthy and shatter your heart like dirty glass, I guess I just have to ask you, or beg you, to hold on. Hold on with everything you have, because in the end. Yeah, they took the parts of you you cherished the most. They shit all over what you had. And that sucks. It's painful as hell...but they didn't take all of you! You can make it. I think you're fantastically amazing. And, hey, just remember, they'll never have someone with really sexy blonde hair like yours...what? :p well I guess that makes this specific to one person, who i'm not sure even reads my blog. But it can apply to everyone!

Gregory is a darling as always. He wished both my best friends happy birthday and did it with pazazz, at least in Tasha's case. And I miss him big times. Jake needs help with his tux rental though so IDK if I'm gonna see Greg on Friday...but I'll have to carry on...

I'm hoping my weight loss thing isn't hopeless, and that I'll look OK at prom...I guess tht's what I want the most. A beautiful Prom picture I can show my kids someday...but it's totally unlikely...maybe. Idk. I guess we'll find out by the end of the month!

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Ugh...sore nesssssssss

Weight loss for prom is not going so well. I'm starting to think it's a lost cause considering the dance in question is only two weeks away...

Went to the doctors office today and that reason'll stay private. But I did get a shot in my arm and that is really very sore...menangitis shots SUUUUUUUUCK.

School is becoming harder and harder to keep up on. I am passing but not by much. AP Lit and Comp is not going super well for me. I need to amp up my game...

I didn't get to see Greg Tuesday and that's realy sad...cause I miss the boy like crazy. Oh wells... D:

MMMMMMMM :)

This weekend was really nice! :D

Of course it was Gregory filled...and I love him. It took me a really long time after Sean to be able to trust anyone to be close to me again, let alone a boy that I was romantically involved with...but for once, when this boy tells me he'll love me forever, I believe him. And I'm not afraid. Not afraid that he'll leave and destroy everything he can get his hands on...because it's Greg. And I love him too...

I asked him to prom today! :o I used a giant sign and attatched it to the T-Rex we have at the pavilion. It looked like it was holding the sign! :D And that's really funny. But anyways I was like 'greg, what does that sign say?' and then he saw it and just started laughing! It was so great. Alex made a documentary of it. That made me giggle a lot.

Hmmmmmmm but enough about that perfect boy...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNzrwh2Z2hQ

Watch that clip...it's fantastic. Legitly, epic. It's a remix of the 25 top billboard hits of 2009 and it was very good.

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The Answer Is blowing in the wind....

So, Arbogast had me call the Childrens Hospital to set up a time for our show to perform there. Isn't that lovely? She's having me do her job again :/ oh wells that's upsetting. I didn't do any better than her though. They put me on hold a bunch and then couldn't get ahold of anybody! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

Didn't go to school today. Went with my mom instead to look at Canton SD so she could get her new license plates for the new car.

Had a fight with Gregory. I won't go into details, it's just something I ought to mention...

The winds really strong today...its kinda scary! D:

how to save a life...

Well, I would like to lose some weight ladies and gentlemen...it's really bothering me how I look, and lately it's become an almost obession. But no worries, still eating and not vomiting or anything...just stressing about how my prom pictures will look. Because guess who the other two girls are? Skinny one and two. Melanie and Erin. Mel and I used to be the same size until she couldn't eat sugar anymore...and now she's really cutely shaped. Still curvy, but hotter. And i'm still fattish miss Libby...idk. I know I'm not obese. I just wish I looked different? it doesn't help to look at Kenzie and know she had the same genetic makeup as me...she just scored more than I. ugh. whatevers. not important i guess!

Gregory and I have a song now...tis rather beautiful! It's called The Fear You won't Fall by joshua radin. You guys should listen to it...it's a very pretty song.

Angels...do you think they cry? When they look down and see how much the world has changed since they were alive? Do they weep for all the doomed possibilities and lost causes? Or do they look to the future and feel their tears dry because in the end everyone will come to them?

Hell, maybe there aren't any angels. but i think there are...I feel it sometimes...

Which brings me to my belated easter thought.

the sermon in my church on easter was about how all of the stuff he did began with love, and how that made all the difference. I liked it...I think Jesus would have been much cooler than God. Not to insult God but, it just seems so much easier to relate to Jesus. He did what he did because he believed in loving everyone as much as you can...

So I don't get the hardcore christians that say they do what he does and then hate Gays and Lesbians...what? I don't think Jesus would have minded if someone was gay...he would have had them sit down with him and eat with him anyway, the same way he did with women in a time where that was unheard of. Jesus was a feminist...he would have been a gay rights supporter too...

Just saying

Hmmmmmmmmmm

Spring break was funnish! I had a lot of fun actually...I had to work a lot buuuuuuuuuuut, there was plenty o' hanging out time!!!

i guess my only comment is that i'm growing up...I like the person I am. And I can't wait to see what I do next... :0

Spring has Sprung!

Hmmmm...lovin the weather!

I've been pulling major shifts at the pavilion trying to rake in the cash. I think it's working. Plus i have tons o' money on its way for graduation, which I'm not quite clear on the spending of. Like, what I'm supposed to be doing with it. So i'm just sticking it in the savings account, then in my life insurance account once I'm eighteen. But that's a different story...consumer math actually taught me something not pointless! :O

It hit me today on my way to work that melanie will be moving to Utah, and that I'll never really see her again once we're in college. I mean I knew it, I just didn't think about it in depth. And that really flipping sucks...cause she's been one of my best friends for so long, I'm not sure I know how to not be around her...who am I going to piss off for fun?! Lol legit though...I started crying while driving. Lame. And not too safe either...

So I pulled this huge shift at the pavilion today, and then drove to Greg's house...and guess what? I walked in and he just picked me up and proceeded to carry me because he knew my feet would be killing me. Then he gave me a foot rub...which is amazing. Just saying, foot rubs rule. The world would be a better place if the leaders of every country would get together and do foot rubs once and a while. Future UN meeting idea? I think so...

I might shave my head this summer to help raise money for kids with cancer...Any people here who would hate me if I did so? I'm just saying, seems like a decent cause. Although I might be hideous for a while, but hey, whatevers...not much to lose there anyways :p

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