I CAN'T DO BOTH!

Sean, I know you don't read this, and I know nobody really does, but I feel that if I don't write it, I'll break down and die....

1. You and I liked each other, and I told you I liked you first.

2. I WAITED FOR TWO MONTHS FOR YOU

3. I asked you flat-out if you wanted to date....if we should date...

4. I made myself open up to you...because it hardly seemed like a risk at the time. Because you are so full of good...

5. I love you. As a friend. But falling in love with you has been something that I think is possible for such a long time...

and now you won't open up to me anymore. You are so mad that I've kissed another guy (when you and I never kissed) that you can't tell me what you're feeling or how to resolve it.

You're doing what I never thought you would Seany boy. You're pulling away and hurting me through every step of it.

I love you. But you didn't take me when you had the chance. And now you're hurt...please just pick one. Either love me as a friend, love me as more, or leave me. I won't really ever be OK again if you pick that last one...but pick one. B/c the little halfway mark we're on really sucks ass...