Ginger Snaps

I'm a watching Ginger Snaps...it's a great movie. Even it does depress beyond most people's comprehension...which it does to me. But I sometimes seek sorrow when I'm alone. Don't ask me why, tis an odd habit. One I developed back in the old days...

So Dog Days is going pretty boringly...I hate my character Victoria. I'm not a really good hooker onstage apparently, and I feel so insecure with all the other actresses up there...they're all so good and I don't know if I measure up.

Have you ever realized that things that used to make you happy don't anymore? I mean Sean still does, but he's so sad now and I don't know how to help him. How can you tell a boy that his mother loves him when she won't stop treating him so horribly? My faith in the world is suffering all over the place...fuck my life where did the joy i felt in my last post go? I felt so good when i wrote that...it was really crazy...

Maybe I'm bipolar. It'd be a tragically ironic twist of fate wouldn't it? If I came out with even more emotional problems? Two therepists daughter. Joy to the world, she's lost her mind.

So, Sean will probably be moving out soon to live with Tasha, since his house is fucked. I don't blame him at all. It's just interesting. My boyfriend will be living with my best friend. Think of what people will start to say...it'll be great won't it? Not only does Libby date a guy whos two grades younger, but he's cheating on her with her little sister and she's too stupid to notice.

I know they won't do anything. But that's what everyone will think.