Mugshot

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Sunday, June 27, 2010

I'm pretty fucking scared...

What if I can't make it in college?

What if I won't be the adult I always wanted to be?

What if I become just like everyone else?

What if something really is broken inside of me, and I can never trust anyone again?

What if this pessimist inside of me never leaves?

What if I stop fighting?

What if I slip?

What if I fall?

What if I made so many mistakes that I'll never be able to climb out of them all?

My life is a compilation of what if's. And of course I'm scared. Too scared to move. I don't think I'm doing so good.

Job I hate.
People who will leave so soon.
I never thought I would wake up one morning hating the world and myself like I do.

I'm not sure what I'm becoming

But I know it's never something I aimed for.

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