I love those moments in life when you realize that the people you've let into your heart aren't even sure they're there...am I really so cold to Sean that doesn't know how I feel?
Let me clarify...I was talking to him on facebook and I made a joke about my sister not loving him anymore and he goes 'great another girl whos affection I have to fight for' and I was like 'who else are u fighting for?' to which he replied 'why ask a question we both know the answer to?' so of course he meant me. So I told him he didn't need to fight at all...that my affection was his...and he says:
Really? Because it doesn't seem like it...
wow...ouch? I am so sorry I dont live up to your expectations mr I can't forgive libby for not just liking me.
You know what? I love Sean I really do. More then he'll ever realize, and it's obvious he never will. But I'm human. I need more then a constantly cold half version of what used to be my best friend. I kissed John. Fucking deal with it! I'm sorry you didn't want me to kiss you and now you're dying on the inside because I wanted someone else for thirty seconds!!!
I'm not a whore. I'm not a bad person. I'm a girl who needed more then a 'no' from a guy. So bite me Seany boy.
Oh Libby...I'm really starting to think that if Sean is going to be this pissy about things it might be better to forget about him. I know that's probably not what you want to hear and I feel like a bitch for saying it but i don't think he's worth it. :( But i totally love you no matter what! :D
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