I hate runny eggs...

I have to agree with Ziggy in his latest blog...he has this theory that everyone is dying on the inside. And that some of us just deal with it better. Now I must say that's a little bit dramatic...but about 70% true...

I'm so sick of school. And I think my body is starting to reject food...it doesn't accept anything that I know isn't good for me. The second I try to eat something sugary i get really nauseous...and that's scary...

But I'd say the main reason I'm depressed is that I have been spending a lot of time with friends this weekend...and its really starting to hit me that I won't be around...I'll lose all these people. Sure, I'll come back, but I wont be that close with anyone...

And as selfish as it is, I am just dying to have Taylor come to SDSU...he's considering U of M in the cities and that'd be a better education for himm...but I'm inherently selfish and it's because deep down, I don't know how to live without taylor there to remind me who I am...I get lost sometimes. I have breakdowns and breakups and breakings...and every single one Taylors been there to catch me. And IDK how to do stuff without him there to help me laugh at myself...

I keep ending paragraphs with ...

Oh wells! Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. I'm terrified of college...literally I shake sometimes thinking about if I'll fit in or not. Oh gosh...being terrified is not fun times for Libby. I think it's because I'm dating Greg, but I want to make friends outside his group of friends. In other words, I wanna make new friends but keep the boyfriend I have now. I'm not sure if that'll be difficult or not. I'm just going to try to be nice to everyone and keep up with my GSA stuff if that's possible.

I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel
this way

I'm struggling with the people who knew the old me
And those who are willing to see the person I'm becoming