I'm losing it...it's seemed to me for some time now that I am in fact a pathetic excuse for a human being....and here are a couple reasons why....

1. I'm incapable of happiness if I'm not in a relationship

2. I'm desperate to be happy, which it turn makes me desperate for a relationship, which is pathetic

3. I haven't done anything worthwhile this year

4. I have crushes on all the wrong guys, many of whom wouldn't notice if i hung myself right in front of them

5. I really like unavailable guys...

6. Fuck life. Fuck it. Fuck Fuck Fuck FUCK!

I HATE FEELING THIS WAY...

ugh i don't feel happiness much...