Things that Have been bugging me:

Ok, so as of late, in case you guys couldn't tell, I've been pissed. Uber pissed about everyone and everything and AAAAAAAAAA

I'm a gonna make a list. and hopefully it'll help to ease me aching heart....

1. I have a crush on two unattainable guys, who so aren't interested in me

2. I hate the play I'm in...

3. I'm really disapointed in Rich...not because of his kissing that chick. I don't care what he does with his tongue. But more because...idk I thought he would take better care of tasha....

4. I'm low on sleep all the time...

5. I'm pissed at life. At love. oh, here we go, i feel a rant coming on....

WHAT DID I DO? What did I do to deserve getting just totally ripped inside out by him? I DIDN'T EVER HURT YOU ADDISON. FUCK YOU! Fuck it! I'm still in pain! I CAN'T LET GO AND IT'S SO PAINFUL. I feel like a kid who has a lit candle in her hand, and the wax keeps dripping down her hand, and it's hot so she knows she should drop it, but it's such a pretty candle....
I didn't ever cheat on him, or put him second. I did everything right. But i still got fucked. What's the point of trying in life if you get fucked in the end anyway?

ugh i can't handle it.

6. Sean is dying on the inside. He's slipping away and I can't help him, and I wake up at night screaming from nightmares where he's killed himself.

I can't handle it. I feel so angry and upset and ready to cry all the time.