Laramie Project

Well for one thing from my last post, Justin and Gunn broke up :(. Only now Gunn is dating KC again, and there was only about 3 days of single time there, maybe even less than that. I don't think Gunn's been single for more then 2 days since the beginning of the year, and yeah that is an issue for me. What the heck girl??? Yeah, it hurts, beleive me when I say i know, but if you don't recover you'll never deal, and it'll all come crashing down in one horrible day/hour/moment.

LHS is doing Laramie Project this year. I scored the part of Romaine Patterson, and even though I wasn't really very familiar with this play when I tried out, she's the one I would have wanted anyway...but god this play is fucking me up. If hatred is allowed to progress to this point in today's society, if someone is allowed to be murdered because they're different how long until I'm next?? Or until someone I love is? My friends are different, and special. But if people are determined to hate someone that's different than what does that say about us?? Are we really just like our caveman-ish ancestors? Or have we all come to realize that we can, in fact, rise above those initial instincts and embrace our fellow man for who they are? I can only cling to this one hope:

If humanity can hate uncondionally, then maybe we can love just as much

So lately i've been trying to compare the two and this is what I've got so far: Hate creates more hate, and love does not.

A friend of mine suggested we are born with the instinct to hate, and that we learn love as we get older...I'm hoping it's the other way around. Because if we could pinpoint that one moment, that one experience or time in our lives that we decided that hate was ok, maybe we can eradicate it. A world without hate. That's something I would give my life to see.

Defying Gravity

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!

There was a party at Bridget's house and that was fun. We consumed enough junkfood to fill any elephant and I get to take home the fun left overs! :) We also watched Edward Scissorhands and Ginger Snaps...yeah us!

Addison is still in Redfield, and he was at a party with other couples so he was extra lonely...

Gunn and Justin were at Bridget's...oh my gosh they're so cute. It's about freaking time some guy came along to take good care of Gunn, she really deserves it...

I feel like someone took half my heart and ran away with it...I want it back please...I miss Addy a lot. It's phsically painful now....and i know he wants to be here, but there's a big difference between wanting and being...

I am the strength of Elphaba and will pursue with hope