My throat is super sore...I called in sick to work and that's the first time I've done that at the pavilion...so hopefully they aren't that mad at me. However, I could never do my job without a voice so that's out!
Um...I'm madly in love with Greg Jensen...he's pretty much everything I could ever want. I desperately want to get out of sick-ville because tomorrow is our 5 monthaversary and we have a real fun date planned and i don't wanna be too ill to go! D:
I have pounds of cold stuff to numb my throat and a marathon of Sex in the City.
Question of the Day from Carrie on Sex in the City...
'When women break up we always look for answers, for a lesson to learn from here. And yet men often have the ability to walk away. So the question is, why do we look for lessons to lessen the pain?'
Mugshot
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
HMMMMMMM....getting ill
I'm getting sick...
I work too much
Greg saw me actually truly angry last night and I nearly broke my laptop by taking my anger out on it.
Hmmmmmmmmm...
yep that's about it
I work too much
Greg saw me actually truly angry last night and I nearly broke my laptop by taking my anger out on it.
Hmmmmmmmmm...
yep that's about it
Friday, May 28, 2010
rant...
So...being a girl kind of fucking sucks. I'm not a fan.
Oh hey ladies! You're gonna bleed once every month, and on top of that you'll probably have a few bleed throughs and if you're lucky nobody will see them but that's unlikely. YOu'll ruin your favorite underwear and jeans and in the end basically hate yourself.
And if you try to get on birth control that solves this unfortunate problem, youre fucked again! Whoo! Every hormone that you could possibly imagine will go bananas and make you wanna jump your bf one second and hate his guts the next.
And the whole birth control issue rocks because it's a bunch of bullshit for something that you probably won't enjoy anyway since eventually it leads to painful childbirth and then a lifetiime of caring for that kid who will never really be grateful for anything you do.
But hey, being a girl is nice because...um....huh...
Oh hey ladies! You're gonna bleed once every month, and on top of that you'll probably have a few bleed throughs and if you're lucky nobody will see them but that's unlikely. YOu'll ruin your favorite underwear and jeans and in the end basically hate yourself.
And if you try to get on birth control that solves this unfortunate problem, youre fucked again! Whoo! Every hormone that you could possibly imagine will go bananas and make you wanna jump your bf one second and hate his guts the next.
And the whole birth control issue rocks because it's a bunch of bullshit for something that you probably won't enjoy anyway since eventually it leads to painful childbirth and then a lifetiime of caring for that kid who will never really be grateful for anything you do.
But hey, being a girl is nice because...um....huh...
Monday, May 24, 2010
Done.
Graduation was ok. I went to the wrong side of a rope and ended up messing up my whole row of people.
Didn't win any HUGE prizes at the senior party. Got a microwave though, which is rather cool.
And now for the emotions, which from my last posts I'm sure you can all guess...
I'm...
Terrified I've made the wrong decision in SDSU. USD, though I hated the campus, really just seems like a better school all around. I guess I haven't attended any classes yet though...just saying Erin and Annie already know where they're staying and everything. And they can have George Foreman grills...
i really am scared. I feel lost. What if I can't make it? It's so possible that I'll become depressed and slip into something terrible...something apathetic and self loathing. Maybe I've relied on friends too much. I'm not sure I can survive without them
Excited to see how I'll be able to fuck things up now that I'm an adult or whatever
Empty. There's just...so much space
And in the still after the storm I realized I was weeping. And it was not the rain, but my heart that was wetting my cheeks. I was alone. But free.
Didn't win any HUGE prizes at the senior party. Got a microwave though, which is rather cool.
And now for the emotions, which from my last posts I'm sure you can all guess...
I'm...
Terrified I've made the wrong decision in SDSU. USD, though I hated the campus, really just seems like a better school all around. I guess I haven't attended any classes yet though...just saying Erin and Annie already know where they're staying and everything. And they can have George Foreman grills...
i really am scared. I feel lost. What if I can't make it? It's so possible that I'll become depressed and slip into something terrible...something apathetic and self loathing. Maybe I've relied on friends too much. I'm not sure I can survive without them
Excited to see how I'll be able to fuck things up now that I'm an adult or whatever
Empty. There's just...so much space
And in the still after the storm I realized I was weeping. And it was not the rain, but my heart that was wetting my cheeks. I was alone. But free.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
soooooo cloooooose
So lately I've been really depressed...and now I've realized whyyyy!
School sucks...it's really that easy. Work is really not much better but hey at least there i have some fun with the kids and all that. And I get money too...high school never gave me that!
So I think I'm a great companion to smart people, but not a smart person myself? I've realized that my best friends are all super intelligent in twelve AP classes and craziness like that...and I'm just kinda hanging out. Maybe it's my gift/curse in life to play with bigger dogs.
http://www.hulu.com/watch/149646/saturday-night-live-digital-short-great-day
watch that video. it's funny.
School sucks...it's really that easy. Work is really not much better but hey at least there i have some fun with the kids and all that. And I get money too...high school never gave me that!
So I think I'm a great companion to smart people, but not a smart person myself? I've realized that my best friends are all super intelligent in twelve AP classes and craziness like that...and I'm just kinda hanging out. Maybe it's my gift/curse in life to play with bigger dogs.
http://www.hulu.com/watch/149646/saturday-night-live-digital-short-great-day
watch that video. it's funny.
Monday, May 17, 2010
I'm a little concerned...
I'm rapidly realizing that now that you're back, I don't want you to be. Stop talking about me to everyone
You're not the only one with problems.
But no drama for graduation.
I want to have some fun...
You're not the only one with problems.
But no drama for graduation.
I want to have some fun...
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Why hellllllloooooooo there...
So, looks like at the end of the month Kenzie is going on a vacation with some peeps from Redfield. Addison, Andrew, Claire, Kenzie, John and like some other peoples I don't know. Guess how that makes Libby feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel...
terrified...
She's not always good at looking before she leaps. Idk what will happen to her.
Schooly School School...I do so wish it would both end and go on eternally.
I'll miss you all infinetly more than I can say...
Sometimes I can see what my future without you is like. It's cold. I'll have Greg and I love him.
But even he won't be able to fill the void left by the people I love.
Goodbye
To Erin who taught me that the world can be seen in so many different ways, and that the darkness can be a shield
To Merecedes who showed me that never judging people is a precious asset, and that being true to yourself is more important than anything
To Annie who has never once been angry or upset at me for more than thirty seconds, who taught me the value of a smile and a dry sense of humor
To Melanie who taught me that we only really fight with the ones we love. And showed me God
And To Taylor. Who stopped the blade from making it to my wrists. Who caught me when nobody else would. And who always has time for me
Oh boy. One by one.
terrified...
She's not always good at looking before she leaps. Idk what will happen to her.
Schooly School School...I do so wish it would both end and go on eternally.
I'll miss you all infinetly more than I can say...
Sometimes I can see what my future without you is like. It's cold. I'll have Greg and I love him.
But even he won't be able to fill the void left by the people I love.
Goodbye
To Erin who taught me that the world can be seen in so many different ways, and that the darkness can be a shield
To Merecedes who showed me that never judging people is a precious asset, and that being true to yourself is more important than anything
To Annie who has never once been angry or upset at me for more than thirty seconds, who taught me the value of a smile and a dry sense of humor
To Melanie who taught me that we only really fight with the ones we love. And showed me God
And To Taylor. Who stopped the blade from making it to my wrists. Who caught me when nobody else would. And who always has time for me
Oh boy. One by one.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
SOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!
Alright so for my Graduation present Greg and I are going on a road trip to Omaha to the zoo there and I haven't been on a vacation in soooooooo long! Gosh I just really need a break. And I keep going on the website of the zoo and it looks so amazing! :o
Plus I know I'll have a fantastic time. I always do with him.
School be stressin' me outttttt.
but i'll endure.
Plus I know I'll have a fantastic time. I always do with him.
School be stressin' me outttttt.
but i'll endure.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
I think love is possible in High School...it was brought up on Izzy's blog that it might be impossible for love to happen in High School...
I would like to respectfully disagree.
I believe that as Teenagers we are now, more than ever, capable of emotions overpowering us. Like Tinkerbelle in 'Peter Pan' sometimes we are only big enough for one emotion. And that's awesome. Because it means we can be taken over, ruled by, devoured by, drown in
L.O.V.E.
It's a beautiful thing. And it does happen
I would like to respectfully disagree.
I believe that as Teenagers we are now, more than ever, capable of emotions overpowering us. Like Tinkerbelle in 'Peter Pan' sometimes we are only big enough for one emotion. And that's awesome. Because it means we can be taken over, ruled by, devoured by, drown in
L.O.V.E.
It's a beautiful thing. And it does happen
Friday, May 7, 2010
Very Panic Inducing
Questions
Keep Crowding
My mind
Nothing is safe
Everything is slipping
falling
slinking
a
w
a
y
and nothing will ever be the same
Keep Crowding
My mind
Nothing is safe
Everything is slipping
falling
slinking
a
w
a
y
and nothing will ever be the same
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I love you
I love your eyes
I love your kisses
I love your soft hands
I love the strong arms that hold me
I love the hair you're never alright with
I love how you drive me crazy
by making me laugh
I love how not a single moment with you is wasted
I love the way you care
I love you
you
you
you
are my everything
and that scares me
but it's worth it
to be happy
I love you.
<3
I love your eyes
I love your kisses
I love your soft hands
I love the strong arms that hold me
I love the hair you're never alright with
I love how you drive me crazy
by making me laugh
I love how not a single moment with you is wasted
I love the way you care
I love you
you
you
you
are my everything
and that scares me
but it's worth it
to be happy
I love you.
<3
Monday, May 3, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
I want to make this world safer for those whom I love. I want the hate to stop.
I agree with John Lennon...religion is more of a problem than it is a solution...
No offense everyone. I was fine with religion before politics got involved. Now it's just another corrupt system full of brainwashed zombies...
The only exception I can find to this is Mormonism...they really do practice what they preach. Gotta say, I find that impressive.
I agree with John Lennon...religion is more of a problem than it is a solution...
No offense everyone. I was fine with religion before politics got involved. Now it's just another corrupt system full of brainwashed zombies...
The only exception I can find to this is Mormonism...they really do practice what they preach. Gotta say, I find that impressive.
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