Big girl you are beautiful

Ok. I'm just gonna say it. I'm really sick of having to worry about my weight. I'm sick of being scared that boys won't want to look at me because I have a few extra pounds dispersed all over. So here goes the fucking rant.

Dear boys,

You say you want skinny girls. But a very skinny girl has almost no boobs and no hips. Which are the defining qualities of a female body. So...when you want a really skinny chick, you're really saying you want...well a body that doesn't have female characteristics. So...a boy? Yes I have some fat on me. On my stomach and my hips and my arms and in my wonderful delicious motor-boat worthy boobs. Which I'm pretty sure most boys like. So to all those boys AND girls who say that fat is gross and that everyone has to be skinny...

go fuck yourselves

Because I really really really REALLY am sick of this bullshit. Eating disorders are at an all time high in this country because we put so much pressure on young women to be ultra skinny. Girls as young as 1st grade are starting to become anorexic and refuse to go to school because they think they're fat and don't want to have to put up with that.

So, once again,

it's not a joke. it's not a reason to laugh at someone. it's not a reason to dislike or judge someone.

Rant ended.

Oh boy...

The predicaments that I get myself into sometimes are so ridiculous I wish I could tell someone about them. But I can't. Because there is not a soul in this world I trust to not judge me anymore. I guess that should make me sad.

I can't trust anymore. That's what sucks the most. Is that everyone I know would look at me call me a slut or an alcoholic if they really knew what my life is like.

And ironically, if I told them why I'm doing these things, they would probably say 'awww I'm so sorry' or something lame like that.

Consider this my lame depressing blog post.

I miss you Greg. God I really really do. But I can't stop moving forward.