Last night!

I spent last night with Greg at Melanie's party. It was a good party :) And laying in Greg's arms was really nice :) :) :)

Hmmm...

My itunes has decided to flip out and delete itself! Sadness??! yes, fucking sadness...because now when I go back and drag up a library it all says 'previous itunes'...and that's fucking annoying. Cause there go all my playlists and stuff...ugh. whatevers its just obnoxious...because now I'm afraid to plug in my ipod and losing all my playlists! grrrr!

Hmmmm...Origins is a stressful place. But we can make it. I know we can. I KNOW we can. We have to. Cause we're LHS drama. And thats what we do...

I approve of Callie and Garrett's relationship cause it makes Callie smile, and she should always smile. Garrett was sick today though so he was being a dick to me. Whatevs.

I miss Greg a lot when he's not around. It depresses me sometimes. But I keep going with my life. Because I'll be able to graduate and get the fuck out of stupid high school...

Tasha-I'm not saying that to offend you. As much as I love you, I can't stay. It's become a poisonous leech that sucks on my heart. I despise it...

Hey...hey you. You're cute :D

So, I'm having a great life! I think maybe once the summer hits and we don't have to see each other every day Sean and I will be cool again...and that's fine. Dude, if you're reading this, and you want a truce...so do I. We've both done some fucked up stuff this last couple of months. And I apologize fully for my actions. I ask you do the same, and maybe we can be close again. Or not. I guess the ball's in your court.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh gregory...:D He's a really great kid...just saying. I mean...he does everything I ask him to IN MY HEAD. I'll be like, 'hmmm I sure wish greg would push my hair outta my face...' and then he will...lol it's kind of amazing? Plus I never get bored with him. He always makes me laugh until I don't think I can breathe. And that's gorgeous. Just like him...mmmmmmmmmmmmm I love it.

Ziggy and Sonya are official now. Gotta say bud, I'm impressed. You out-played both Leif and Alex. LOL it's definetly the red hair...just saying...I'm happy for you two though! Just stay away from those elevators ;) oh, and i guess this means that alex is my official work husband...or maybe leif...hell maybe Skip! LOL. oh jeez.

Merecedes...I just realized that I miss you! Loves my dear.

Car Accident...

I got into a car accident yesterday. I was going too fast and the ice wouldn't let me stop at the stop sign, and I hit an SUV...smacked my head very hard against my window twice. So, I've decided that there's more important things than silly high school drama in my life. I let myself get caught up in stuff...

I could have killed someone yesterday...I almost hit the part of the car where the little girls where sitting in the car. So, here's the deal:

1.) Sean and Claire can say or do what they like to me. I wanna just be peaceful now. Not close, but peaceful. Civil.

2.) I am so ready to graduate and get the hell outta here. There's better things waiting for me, and I'm going to go find them.

3.) I'm sick of talking about people behind their back...I'm done with that shit...

I don't give a fuck.

I can't deal with the drama anymore. You can call me immature. That's fine. But I want this anger out of my life. This deep hatred burning in my soul for you. I took out the anger I had at Sean on Claire...but I just can't have either in my life...

Goodnight to this chapter. I want a new one.

This too, shall pass.

I am done...

I told Claire today that I just couldn't have her in my life anymore. She kept putting it on me to get the drama dept. to love her...she literally said 'it's your fault, you let them they hate me'

oh ok well fuck you then. I didn't do shit.

So I booted her out. i want this outta my system

Oh this one puts my heart to rest...

I really love this picture...even though this is on its side...lol oh well.

Gregory is making me very happy lately...and I adore it. I know I spend a lot of time with him and I don't want any of you to think I love you any less! I'm just distracted. And I apologize.

But...I'm falling pretty hard. It's fantastic. So beautiful I'm afraid it won't last...but I hope it will! I'll make it last :D

It's...confusion...

It's very difficult for me to understand how someone could keep being so destructive when he is plainly being asked to stop. I guess it's easy when you can only see me as an enemy. Whatevs Whatevs. I'm outta here soon enough.

Gregory went back to SDSU...I miss him a lot...but I'm goin to be ok I think. He'll come back on weekends!

I don't think I like Arbies anymore...she's upsetting me a lot lately. She can't stay consistent...

You're as fake as the moans you make

And you're as weak as the hearts you break...

Oh gosh I spend all day yesterday with Gregory. I met his mom and ate dinner with his family. His sister likes me cause I got over excited cause she had this thing she had that made dinosaur shaped sandwiches! How can you not get happy over that!?!?! I ask you! LOL

Yeah we role-played at Jake's and then went to Greg's for dinner, then back to Jakes for "Dracula". It's a good time. He makes me so happy. Honestly, I'm never like 'eh I should stop talking to Greg now cause I'm bored...' :DDDDD Plus his CD collection is something that I might worship...lol.

And a little perk about this is that Sean and I are starting to be cool now that we both have someone else. I swapped about 40 texts with him yesterday, and they were all civil and nice. We even talked a little like we used to when he was my best friend. It felt really nice actually...just cause I missed him a bit.

Happy Snow Days everyone!

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage...

So, today was a decent day. Better than yesterday! :D

Hmmmm...well Sean and I had some civil chit chat. To the intense suprise of those around us. If you watch drama kids faces when i'm talking to him it's like they're waiting for the atom bomb to drop or some shit. I'm tempted to just start randomly talking to him about really personal things so they all go WHAT THE FUCK??! THEYRE SUPER CLOSE AGAIN??! WHA-?

But i won't....

I apologized to Claire. Told her flatout that when I heard the rumor I told my best friends who didn't tell anyone else. But the fact is that I still spread it a little. And that makes me a bitch. Yeah, that's true. She says she is ok though. So that's nice...

Greg and I went to lil' ceasers and met Cody there. That was really fun! Ask me about my Greg Jensen famous name theory...it's fun! :D

Loves <3

Oh noooooes! ha ha ha ha...

So...here's the deal. I did hear that rumor. I told 3 people, each of which I trusted completely. And the only reason it got spread was because my sister's an idiot which we all knew to begin with.

But here's the ending of it: I'm sorry I hurt Claire. She's not too bad, and she has never hurt me outright except for the obvious. HOWEVER...theres the matter of Sean. I was kind and courteous to him all day. Talked to him, tried to provoke conversation. And he acted like I was dumping acid onto him. So, whatever. You're the one acting stupid now dude.

I can't wait until graduation...

but gregory's still a sweetie :D